I had a hard year. You probably did too. Thatās the way things are going right now. I got my third concussion in four years, had to give up basketball and bouldering, worked crazy hours, dodged layoffs twice, spent less time with friends than ever, experienced deranged levels of insomnia and stress. Letās not even get into whatās happening around the world (itās bad folks). But you know what? My wedding was this year. That was the best day of my entire life. We went to Rome for the honeymoon. That was the biggest adventure of my life. I started a new job as the sole creative writer and narrative designer on a kickass multiplayer videogame called SUPERVIVE. Definitely my favorite job ever. I also read some great freaking books. That last part is what this newsletter is about.1
Caveats:
I never finish a book I donāt like. Iāll stick with something difficult but interesting for a while to see if I acclimate, but if I make it all the way through, itās because I got hooked. So Iām going to be super positive about the books on this list. I think theyāre all worth reading.
Iām also out of the literary loop. I donāt read a lot of books the year they come out. So this isnāt remotely a report on the best books of 2024. Itās just the ones I happened to meander through this year.
Elena Ferrante - The Neapolitan Novels
The New York Times put two of these four novels on their only mildly hilarious āBest Books of the 21st Century So Farā list, including the #1 spot, and thatās honestly about right.
When I started this post a few days ago Iād only finished two of the four novels, but I have since binged the rest. They ripped me into a million fluttering pieces. Canāt think of a book thatās made this sort of impression on me in a long time. Probably not since I was a kid and it was possible for, like, the final Animorphs book to have such an effect. I thought Iād grown too old and jaded to have my legs taken out from under me quite this hard any more⦠false. These did it. Iāll likely attempt a separate post on Ferrante sometime soon.
Karl Ove Knausgaard - My Struggle, books 1-4
I finally gave these chunky autobiographical novels a real go this year and was very impressed, like everybody else, by the guyās searing Caveh Zahedi-esque honesty, his willingness to write with such brutal transparency about his own life that he effectively blew that life up in the process. As with Ferrante, Iām planning to discuss Knausgaard in detail separately.
In my opinion the autofictive impulse is the flip-side of the āanonymous authorā coin: both decisions might be viewed as self-obliterating responses to a media culture that connects the author directly to their fiction. Ferrante avoids the cult of personality/invasion of privacy/moral judgment by staying anonymous; Knausgaard bares himself completely, faces the scrutiny without even the pretense of fictionalization (and has indeed gotten his ass chewed off by a million thinkpieces about what a bad guy he is). Speaking of the NYTimesā āBest Books of the 21st Century So Farā listāKnausgaard might be the most notable omission.2 Nobodyās asking, but Iād slot My Struggle into the top 25.
Tolstoy - Anna Karenina and (maybe 2/3 of) War and Peace
The thing about having a concussion is that you canāt do much except lie in a dark room with your eyes closed. In other words, audiobooks are perfect. I started listening to Tolstoy in January, made it deep into War and Peace before I got bored of the hunting stories, then tried Anna Karenina, which was predictably amazing. I kept digging away at it, bit by bit throughout the year, switching from audiobook to ebook, and finished it in the summer. I wrote about Anna Karenina here, but suffice to say it deserves every bit of its acclaim. I think its more intimately scoped and personal storylines helped it hold my attention, whereas War and Peace⦠I donāt know, got monotonous? (Iāll probably still push through eventually because the character work is so good.)
After finishing Anna Karenina I felt strongly that it was one of the two or three best books Iād ever read. That feeling has faded somewhat and I think at this point I still prefer the Dostoevsky classics⦠but who tf cares, these novels are all way better than anything written in the past hundred years except maybe (mischievous grin) Infinite Jest.3
Cormac McCarthy - All The Pretty Horses
Another good audio book. Iād returned to McCarthy seeking inspiration for the novel Iām working on, and he did not disappoint. One thing that All The Pretty Horses makes abundantly clear is that when life or death stakes are involved, you donāt need flourishes of language to hold the readerās attentionāyou just need to relay the facts in their cleanest form.
McCarthy is a poet whose primary medium is action. His stories are compelling for the same reason that Western films return to the gunslinger duel again and again. (Tolstoy couldnāt resist a good duel either. The one in War and Peace, relayed via excited audiobook narrator, had my heart absolutely stomping.) One guy is going to live and the other is going to die. A lot of modern (especially franchise-based) storytelling lacks this drama because the guardrails on the narrative are so transparent; e.g., you know the protagonist needs to appear in the next installment, or at least make it to a happy ending. Not so with McCarthy. Like George R.R. Martin, heāll kill anybody at any time. It makes sense, because in real life thereās no plot armor, and McCarthy is trying to say something about real life. I have to speed these entries up or the newsletter is going to be 20,000 words long.
Franz Kafka - The Metamorphosis, In the Penal Colony, and Other Stories
I finally read Kafka this year and, after initially recoiling, found a lot to likeāthereās a whole newsletter on this over here.
T.S. Eliot - The Waste Land
When I was feeling creatively depleted this spring I turned to poetry for inspiration. As a person whose day job involves writing many very short lines of dialogue, evocative names of objects and places, and short snippets from inside speculative worlds, I have a keen professional interest in squeezing all possible juice from a few well-chosen words.
I read The Waste Land because many sources recommended it, and it definitely set my brain a-sparking, but as the months passed the memory has faded into vagueness. I will be reading more of his stuff.
Charles Bukowski - Essential Bukowski Poetry, what matters most is how well you walk through the fire
Jorie Graham - The Dream of the Unified Field, PLACE
A piece on Jorie Graham in The Point led me to impulse-buy a couple of her collections, and I liked them a lot. Grahamās poems produce searing images and sensations by juxtaposing seemingly unrelated phrases. Imagine if youād never seen the color orange, and then suddenly you combined yellow and red for the first time: thatās what The Dream of the Unified Field felt like to me. Half the time I had no idea what was going on, but it didnāt matterāshe kept putting these incredible pictures in my brain.
Arkady & Boris Strugatsky - Roadside Picnic
During the interview process for SUPERVIVE I was recommended the book Roadside Picnic by Game Director Mike āTipulā Tipul. I picked it up on Kindle and binged it in two days. Roadside Picnic concerns a mysterious Zone left on Earth by aliens, full of strange, hyper-advanced technology that usually manifests as deadly traps. The book inspired both the S.T.A.L.K.E.R videogame series and the Tarkovsky film Stalker.
Whatās special about this book is its ambiguity. The things that happen in the book are fundamentally inexplicable, but people have to deal with them anyway. Itās a bit like VanderMeerās Area X series (which I also love). Message: on a universal scale, humans are bugs. Fascinating, must-read science fiction.
Michel Houellebecq - Submission
In Submission, an Arab nationalist party takes control of Franceās government and institutes Sharia law. If you read the novel as a parable about how this could totally happen and would be so bad, then yes, itās a silly Islamophobic fantasy.4 And from what I can tell Houellebecq is in fact an Islamophobe. But I actually donāt think thatās the point of the book (even if it is a totally valid reason to skip it). What I found interesting about Submission was its exploration of how people behave when incentivized to go against what they supposedly believe. The protagonist of the book is a middle-aged male professor who, it turns out, finds the prospect of multiple wives and a fat Gulf-sponsored paycheck rather alluring.
This is not a book about a Good Guy the author believes we should emulate. Nor is the author a Good Guy himself. But in my opinion the main thing the novel āsays,ā insofar as it makes any sense to evaluate a literary novel that way,5 is that the garden-variety misogyny shared by many male intellectuals isnāt so different from the stuff those same guys criticize radical Islamists for. The book takes for granted a criticism of Islamic nationalists, but the people it really skewers are the hypocritical lit professors of the world, who would switch sides in a second if it aligned with their interests.
At any rate Houellebecq is an undeniably good writer and the book is a thought-provoking read.
Thomas Bernhard - Woodcutters
Sticking with the theme of grumpy European writers with a combative intellectual streak, Thomas Bernhardās Woodcutters is a psychological study of an alienated and bitter man at a dinner party after the funeral of a friend who died by suicide. Despite how bleak it sounds, the book somehow manages to be quite funny and relatable. Bernhard is a unique flavor, sort of a chaotic evil Jon Fosse. If that sounds neat then this is a good place to start.
Ursula Le Guin - The Word For World Is Forest
Le Guin was an absolute master of the form. Her short novels are always so focused and powerful. I consider her the absolute pinnacle of literary speculative fiction, and this sharp, haunting novel was consistent with that thesis.
The Best American Poetry 2023
I picked up this anthology one year late and therefore heavily discounted at Portlandās famous bookseller, Powellās. Really gave me an appetite for poetry anthologies. I struggle with short fiction anthologies because the stories I donāt like bog me down and if I skip them, well, there goes 10% of the book. But itās a pretty amazing feeling to cruise through a hundred poems, enjoy lots of them for different reasons, see all the different ways people use words to get at your soft and vulnerable inner self.
Silly tangentāafter reading all this poetry I was inspired to try some poems myself this year. Itās pretty fun, I recommend it. Hereās a representative example:
Easy
the best you can make is never easy or maybe what's never easy is reaching the place inside you where it is
Okay indulge me for one more:
Did It
When I write even one poem My mind flies to international acclaim, Awards, speeches, interviews Best poem I've read all year says Billy Collins. Hefted on shoulders of burly football men I love the poem It is beautiful to me A nice feeling, while it lasts.
China MiƩville and KEANU REEVES (?) - The Book of Elsewhere
Weird fiction legend China MiĆ©ville collaborating with Keanu Reeves on a thick-ass novel was a fairly unexpected bit of 2024 trivia. The book was indeed stubbornly weirdāMiĆ©ville really thought through the superficially pulp-fictiony āimmortal protagonistā concept and, in my opinion, did it justiceāand the greatest pleasure of all was reading Goodreads reviews from people who came for Keanu and were confronted by a dense jungle of MiĆ©villeās prose:
In an arts & entertainment environment where ease of consumption rules the day, itās pretty gratifying to see a book with a celebrityās name on it go in the opposite direction. How good was the book, actually? I donāt know, Iām way too biased, I thought the whole concept was hilarious and had decided to like the thing long before I started it.
(This was the only book I read in 2024 that was published in 2024, which should cement my status as an insufferable, out-of-the-loop contrarian.)
Joan Didion - Play It as It Lays
A long time ago I read Sex & Rage, by Eve Babitz, a mostly lighthearted depiction of a woman trying to make it in male-dominated Los Angeles in the 60s.6 I liked it; it was airy, poignant, and generally cheerful. Play It as It Lays is that bookās dark doppelgƤnger: an unremittingly bleak, cynical look at the same era, through the same lens. Both books are great.
Play It as It Lays is sharp and piercing literature that reveals the misogynist underpinnings of golden-age Hollywood. Itās the real story behind those Kerouac novels where beautiful women appear, party for a few scenes, go ācrazy,ā and exit the narrative. Situations that were fun and games for Kerouac and his protagonists induced bitter hardships for the women involved, as Didion shows us in crushing, painful detail. Anybody who reads On the Road should be mandated to read Play It as It Lays right afterward.
Benjamin Labatut - When We Cease to Understand the World
Meticulously researched historical fiction, or maybe creative nonfiction, about scientists and mathematicians. This book⦠folks⦠you have to read this book. It is so clean, sharp, focused, and compelling. A really exceptional piece of writing. Please read this book.
To 2025
Since beginning this newsletter in December 2020, Iāve published 28 posts, or one roughly every two months. I go through periods when I feel very motivated to read, and by extension write about what Iām reading; at other times I feel very motivated to write (fiction), and writing about writing starts to feel unproductive. This year was a reading year, which should have meant it was a newsletter year, though unfortunately it was also a year during which I had to work a ton of overtime. In 2025 my project is to find a sustainable balance between my narrative design career and my aspirations as a writer of fiction. The newsletter is a lower priority, though Iāll continue to post when I can.
I love you folks. Thanks for sticking around.
-Justin
Though Iām considering renaming this newsletter āNarrative Designsā so I can include some posts about videogame writing too.
Per Wikipedia, Knausgaard contributed to the selection process, but unlike Junot Diazāwhose admittedly very good novel The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao clocks in at a screaming-high #11āand the works of other contributors, My Struggle didnāt crack the list. I wonder if Knausgaard proposed himself and was overruled, orāwith trademark self-deprecationādecided not to nominate himself. Many of the writers on the list have described Knausgaard as one of the best novelists working today (e.g. Rachel Cusk, who is also amazing), so itās a curious omission overall.
Among my many unpublished Substack drafts is a lengthy essay titled āIs It Okay to Like Infinite Jest?ā which I did not publish because it turned out just as annoying as it sounds. (For the record my answer is Yes. Best writing on addiction that Iāve personally encountered. Stimulus-dense, inventive, extremely funny. Itās a great novel, regardless of its reputation as The Book Annoying Dudes Brag About Reading.)
This seems to be EXACTLY how people on the far right in France have read it, even though Houellebecq makes extensive fun of them in the book.
I read it because of an excellent Jia Tolentino piece in the New Yorker.